Monday, July 07, 2008.

I really don't want to think about it but i can't help it.Why is this happening?I keep asking myself.Why have you both change so much?Why?why?Why have you become like this?I feel so sad and i can't tell you the truth or tell you what im really feeling about all this.We used to be so close,we have been friend for so long.I don't know how i put up with you both. :(( I feel so confused and sad.I don't want to to lose you both,both of you have been so great,why change all of sudden.You don't know the whole truth.You guys used to be the one cheering me up and joking around with me and laughing.Good times?I can't face you all now,i hope you understand.I'm tired,angry and sad.Feelings all mixed up.Usually angry and disappointed.Last week was the worst week i ever gone through.I may be smiling but really,im just faking a smile infront.I really hope you change for the better,that's all i can say.I can never forgive myself if i one day i can no longer talk or face them.I hope we stay friends.Sorry for everything.I just can't take it anymore.I keep thinking about you both and it just pains me,all those times we had,are those fiction,did they really happen,i no longer believe that they do :(

I'm blessed to have so many great friends,Xueyi,Zisong,Haikel and Fuhong especially,including xiaofen,and gb friends and many many others and i don't want to lose any of them.

ps.Tomorrow is another day. Haish...

{ Monday, July 07, 2008 }