Saturday, August 30, 2008.

Why GOD made friends?



Today woke up early,had breakfast and did E maths.Later had tuition and now im here blogging and talking to Sara from Brunei,she coming back to singapore on 26/10/2008.Hope i can meet her.Nothing interesting really,later going to chinatown i think,tomorrow the start of all those supplementary classes.Haish,i can do it!I must buck and really hit the books.I want to do well for my EYE and not make my dad disappointed again.I can do it!

Ps.I must let go and start afresh.I must!I must!I can't expect eveything to be the way it was before,happy and fun because everything changed and nothing is ever the same no matter how much you wish it changes back and how much you missed it~The power is almost gone.

{ Saturday, August 30, 2008 }

Friday, August 29, 2008.

{ Friday, August 29, 2008 }

Thursday, August 28, 2008.

Nothing i do is right.I just want to give up.No matter how hard i try ,i always fail.What am i to do?I don't have the strength to keep fighting any longer.I can't take it anymore,all i want to do is cry.I cry till no tears come out.I have never cried so hard in my life.So much has happened.My friends,my studies,everything goes wrong.I just want to cry.

I will always remember all those times we had together.
I just want the old friends i knew way back then.
Why must they change so much?
They are the ones who were always there for me.
Thanks guys for everything you have done for me in the past.
We have to look forward to the path ahead.
Whatever it might be,i will follow it.
The friendship that we shared,it was special,extraordinary but i don't know how long it will last.

Nothing is going right for me now in my life.I'm really scared of my parents.Especially my mother.I'm afraid for my Dad and Sister,im so scared that get scolded because of me.Melinda,your exams are near,don't let mum put you down,do your best and you're be fine.I'll make sure mum don't scold you because of me.I have to face it sooner of later.My dad,he is always the one i turn to when i need help,he always take the rap for me.I really feel very terrible.My dad has done so much for me and i disapoint him yet again with my result.:(Sorry Dad,i've tried my best.I wish i can just end everything.All i want is to live each day happily with the people i love and care about.

Bye for now~
ps.It really hurts.Really.

{ Thursday, August 28, 2008 }

Sunday, August 24, 2008.

I can't let go

I don't know what to do from this point on.

Friday
I have gb drill training on friday.Put my bag in sc room.As it is,something happened.After that,i went to find xueyi,she was on her way out of school with huishi,they going for dentel,later that come back.I told her what happened.After she left,i saw sheridin and rest.I cannot control myself,and i cried.Thanks sheridin,esther and shinyi for comforting me,but i can't stop thinking about it.Very distracted during drill,kena alot from my officers.After cca,i wanted to go home but i realise my bag in sc room.So i don't want to go,instead i just wait and watch other cca.Waited for about 45mins outside.When they came out,i asked rose helped me take my bag.I could'nt go in.I didn't want to face them.When i saw them,i just ran into the toilet and i ... i don't know,its just too much for me.Xueyi went back first.I went with Sheena,Rose,Fionn and Joycelyn.Thanks guys.
I really don't understand.

Saturday
Raining.Gb as usual.After gb went to jcc.Accompanied xueyi for her make up badgework with mdm peien.I seek advice from mdm peien.She just tell me i must first learn to let myself go,how am i to do that?



all those moments,are they just fiction?
they never really happened righr?
my friends?who are they?
are they really?

ps.i wish all this never happened.

{ Sunday, August 24, 2008 }

Wednesday, August 20, 2008.

Happy Birthday to XUEYI!20.08.2008

{ Wednesday, August 20, 2008 }

Friday, August 15, 2008.

Yay,today so called last day of common test but next week still have 3 more test,chemistry,chinese and geography again.This week has been a terrible week,especially last 2 days.Test consecutively,brain feel like bursting,like todaySocial studies test finish,next lesson straight geography.Anyways,after that had chinese lesson then physics lesson.You know today i very happy.Got back Physics common test.At first failed by half mark then like very sad,then later found 1 mark,not sure if can claim marks cause my answer don't look right,end up mdm say can then she see my marks,she was silent for a moment then she suddenly smile.She very happy say"well done Melissa!Continue to work hard"I was very happy with her remark,first time i past a physics test so im very happy.She really encourage me and she really motivate me to carrying on working hard on my physics.Thank Mdm Ho,my classmates,especially,ShiHong,Xueyi,JianZhong,XiuZhen,Cindy,Penelope,Fionn and many more,sorry if i miss out your names but thanks alot for motivating me even more :) i love my classmates!Now hoping for the same for A maths.Chemistry must work harder a little.After school went to Gek Poh to work on my econs project with Bahrul,Jonjoe,WeiLun and SiWei,Xueyi had meeting so she met us later.My group rocks!!That weilun PERVERT!!No words to decribe,even PERVERT also cannot be used to describe him!HMPH!!We completed our poster and flyers.Yay!Tomorrow we would be setting up our stall at the NLB,around bugis there.Please come support us,TRUMP ASS!Heh!heh!Tomorrow still have gb,only going for role call.

Can't wait for tomorrow!
ps.Hopefully my uncle gives me good news!For Zisong's and Haikal's sake!

Bye for now~

{ Friday, August 15, 2008 }

Monday, August 11, 2008.

Update...
Saturday
Family Gathing,went to my aunt's house to watch fireworks and watch the ndp parade on tv.Also have to help prepare things for my aunt wedding,this coming October.It was fun untill my uncle came and broke the news about his dog,Fluffy.It has to be put to sleep because of cancer,it was suffering,coughing blood and my uncle and cousins thought it was selfish of them if they didn't let it go and they could no longer bear to see her suffer so end up,they had to let go.Fluffy is the oldest and longest dog out of the 5 dogs in my family,hope she enjoyed her life with us.(still thinking about her) :(
Okay,after hearing this,of course everyone sad but glad that fluffy is no longer suffering.But after that everyone was okay.We had steamboat for dinner and i was helping my aunt with the chocolate fountain,my whole hand chocolate.My cousins were all busy dipping the fruits and licking the chocolate,yummy!Later,my cousins,Chiew Wen Jie,JiaYee and Karina pulled me aside.They wanted to discuss about the clothing we wearing during the wedding,all must be same colour and MUST be a dress.Die,i don't have dress,i only have skirts.What's more,they say must be purple.I never wore a dress since i was Pri3,oh my,i have a bad feeling about this.Later went to set up my dad's laptop to use.Then i remembered what i promised Zisong and Haikal.So i asked my uncle about the tv but he said he given to my other uncle.Then about the laptops,he said he can give the 2 spare ones which are still new,only a few months old.So i he gave me and i kept it aside.Later my cousins were fighting over the computer and i couldn't let them use my dad's cause alot of his work inside.So my uncle say let them use first,later i keep back.My cousins play untill very fierce then i see the way they handle the laptops,i scolded them,then they say they will be more gentle.Little did i know...something else happened,bomb,smoke come out,then both stop funtioning.My uncle told me to tell my 2 friends sorry but he will send for repair to see if the laptops could be saved.I very angry with my cousins,lucky i never let them play my dad's if not i will be murdered by my dad.Really sorry to both of them.
Later i went online,chatting with Hazirah,by the way,thanks for cheering me up girl!She also keep saying what,when will we reunite again.She asked me if i could go Brunei end of year to visit them.I was like,even if my parents allow,i also cannot go,have "O" levels to prepare for.I seriously don't know.All i know is that,no matter how long we have to wait,what distance we are separated by,im glad i got to know you all,and the short time we spent together,i will always treasure them. :)
Sunday
Stayed at home,had tuition till 3 plus,heard that the others went out to watch movie.But i guess that's okay,anyway,i got tuition,how to go?and i really had fun with my cousins on saturday.

Ps.Life is not always fair.
Bye for now~

{ Monday, August 11, 2008 }

Friday, August 08, 2008.

Today we celebrate national day.
Woke up at 5.15am today.My siblings fight with me over the toilet,end up i last person to use.Then left house at 6.10am,so early,walk to 185 bus stop,wait for bus.That xueyi,sms,call also never reply,i using phone on the bus some more got 2 teachers on the bus.Lucky never got caught,met zisong,haikal,fuhong and xueyi.Xueyi's dad drove us to school,4 of us squeeze behind.Had parade at school.Alot of confusion this morning.Many girls were late but lucky they made it in time.The march pass was lousey.All of us were very confused,we don't know who to follow.Nevermind,good effort girls.Later went to change into fd costume,the guys wear long sleeve very smart looking.Yay,3H won the hat competition!Xueyi is our class model and chuen liang and fanying are the 2 helpers.She is also the only girl model.Well done!Thanks Cailing,Shihong,Bahrul for helping with the hat :) we couldn't have done it without you guys,sorry that i wasn't there to help finish with the hat.Sec3 NYAA the dance,very tiring,haikal keep making me,say what,"oi!smile"/"xiaofen calling you"During the mass dance,when the whole school dance,the haikal wearing his boots kick me!WTH,im so going to get my revenge.As for zisong,he keep disturbing xueyi.It was very tiring,but it was a great day.After the whole event,went to kfc at gek poh to eat.Haikal left first after eating.Later the guys for last year 2E,including zisong,xueyi and fuhong,play pearl fight.Xueyi in the most terrible state.I must shake my head.From top to bottom,she has pearl all over.Not only that,she fell down while chasing Fuhong.Haha,i can't imagine what her dad will her say when she goes home.Now at home watching youtube,my whole family home.Tomorrow still got family gathering.

ps.FUN!!i will upload photo of today soon! :) especially xueyi with pearls on her body.

Bye for now~

{ Friday, August 08, 2008 }

Sunday, August 03, 2008.

Thank you Zisong and Haikal.Yesterday went out with them.After gb i chiong to jp.They wait for like 20minutes because gb release late.Xueyi never go,she went swimming and Sheena's house.So left me and the 2 guys,went to ikea at queensway to see furniture.Later they went to buy hotdog to eat,in conclusions,boys mouths are very big and have a big appetite.They say after eating,they still want go mcd eat.Then the guys went to help me find a bag.Zisong also looking for that bag he wants badly.We walk untill there is nothing to walk then we take 198 to Jurong East.We go IMM.Nothing much to say actually,just that it was fun going out with them. :) well thats all.

Bye for now~
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{ Sunday, August 03, 2008 }