Friday, January 30, 2009.

Feel like dying right now,too much stress,too much homework and too much tests.Have not been sleeping well lately.Feel like exploding.Haish.

{ Friday, January 30, 2009 }

Sunday, January 25, 2009.

Happy Birthday Zisong!May all you wishes come true,all the best in whatever you do.
To everyone,Happy Lunar New Year!Wish all of you a great year ahead.

Tonight going for reunion dinner,first time with my cousins,my ah ma this year too tired to cook so this year not going back.

{ Sunday, January 25, 2009 }

Saturday, January 24, 2009.

Our last picture picture together.

I see another light now.Thanks joycelyn,fionn,sheena and rose for showing it to me.I can't wait for them.Not matter how much i miss my my friends,how much i miss PR,it won't change anything.For the first time in my life,i really recognise myself as the "pink ranger"It's funny huh?Half a year ago,i would never acknowledge myself as one.I remember you 4 dancing and making fun of me at zisong's house,you guys calling me "ahmeng"which i still don't know why.I remember those trips to JE,taking neoprints,to queensway,trip to brunei,nyaa camp,school concert,bullying xueyi on the way home,hours spent in the sc room,meal together,too many to even name out, all those sweet memories.Those memories will stay with me,but now,my decision is that i quit PR,because i don't see the meaning anymore.You guys have new friends,treasure them,don't make it turn out like PR.You guys may not know it but you guys changed my life,and brought so much joy and laughter to me,i have never been happier,I'm just glad all of you are happy but PR is no longer there,you can't deny it.Well,its still there,carry on without me.I don't deserve the place anyway.I hope you guys understand,i love all of you and wish you all the best this year.

Labels: just let go.

{ Saturday, January 24, 2009 }

Friday, January 23, 2009.

Today chinese new year celebration in school.Took part in the blow paint competition,didnt win but hey,the prizes are only tibits and i had fun anyway.Great job bahrul and joyceyln(:(: Gave oranges to Ms Nithiya during the celebration.

After school,rushed to joycelyn's house to change,cause scared the rest angry if we late,but end up we got there half and hour earlier,so me and joycelyn went jp walkwalk,joycelyn bought her cardigan.Later joined Sheena,Rose and Fionn and made our way to IMM.Miracle,i manage to buy my new year clothing.Rose and sheena were driving me nuts,especially Rose,keep choosing red clothing for me,she has this wrong idea that on chinese new year,we MUST wear red -.- i don't know where she get that idea from.Hahahaha..so end up sheena and fionn got quite fed up and say that when hari raya comes,we should all choose green clothing for her.XD anyway,after that went with joycelyn to library,before that joycelyn bought a watch,since it was 2 for 10 bucks and 1 for 6 bucks,she helped me buy also,but i pay her next week.Hmm..BIG BIG thanks to JOYCELYN,ROSE,SHEENA AND FIONN,haha,i know i very choosey and hard to please.XD Love you guys,today was madness man but i have lots of fun with you guys.Thanks for everything.Sniff*So touching right?right?hahaha...

Labels: NewBeginning.

{ Friday, January 23, 2009 }

Thursday, January 22, 2009.

Not point staying in the past because it will never come back,no matter how much i wish it.
I'll never fit in to your new life,but im starting mine,i can't be always hoping and wishing we could be together this year,because now i know,it will never happen,its better like this,we're just go our separate ways.(PR no more)Sorry?But thanks for those memories.

Well,this week is coming to an end soon,it has been a great week i guess. :/ Going out with Joycelyn,rose,fionn and sheena,can't wait,going to do some last minute for new year clothing,okay,i know its late but what can i do,no time to go buy.Tomorrow me,bahrul and joycelyn taking part in the blow paint competiton for chinese year,good luck to us,4H jiayou jiayou!!Yesterday night studied very very hard for chemistry and just revise a little for E maths,but maths was super super tough and chemistry was okay but i very scared i fail. ): I really hope and pray i pass both.This year really going to work really really hard.My cousins who took O level last year,did really really well,5 distinctions,8 distinctions,gosh must buck up!!Jiayou Lim Yi Hui!Super stressing,feel like suffocating!!!Wheewww...

I really hate my class the chairperson,abuse of authority,he think he very big,how can he make fun of other people's names,you have no right to, think its very funny, think that by doing this,we will like him,dream on.If you want our respect,respect us first.You are self-centered,proud,selfish,stubborn,ignorant and (...other vocab words that relate to these words that describe you soooo perfectly)Stop thinking you are the big boss in the class.Seriously,if you want us to respect and listen to you as a chairperson,then act like one,i know im in the wrong because i posted this,but i can't contain myself anymore,reflect upon yourself!How can you say "Eeeyeh.."when you saw those pictures of the less fortunate,how can you be so heartless?This Service Learning project,i don't think you are in the catergory of thinking of others before yourself.I don't think you should even do this project if you are going to "Eeeeyeh" everytime you see these people.Tsk,please think about it.

Ohh well,whew,sorry,i had to blew so steam off.(: but i need to wake that chairperson up.Chinese New year coming up!This year not going to Ah Ma's house,she said she was tired and not going to have reunion dinner:( Have to wait another year to see her.But this year first time go my grandma's house for steam boat reunion dinner,together with my cousins.But i still have tuition that day.This year one extra ang pao cause my aunt just got married last year ;D hahaha...

Lots to think about..

Labels: PRnomore.

{ Thursday, January 22, 2009 }

Sunday, January 18, 2009.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELINDA & DADDY!!

Heyhey,just got back.Family picked me up at 6pm from tuition and off we went to celebrate my sis and dad's birthday at this thai restraunt at Orchard Rd.The food was good,and the 气氛 was there.Woo,first time use chinese word in post.Just wanted to wish them a great year ahead.On the way back home,i saw the first star tonight,a big and bright one,i gazed at it,it was so beautiful.Took some photos,take a look:the third picture is suppose to be curry,don't look like it right but its spicy and very fragrant.2nd photo is satay wrap in some kind of leaf from thailand.It's nice,suppose to be appetizer.

Labels: happy birthday.

{ Sunday, January 18, 2009 }

Saturday, January 17, 2009.

These are photos i just took of jewel,she is SUCH a hyperactive,and playful dog,there are photos of her rolling around on the bed,another one playing with her teddy bear and worst of all,the one with her playing with a super duper big rock.The rocks are her collection,she collects them back everyday after a walk,i don't know why she does that,see the big pile,i threw away so many but they seem to be coming back.NAUGHTY!Gave my dog a bath this morning,she now smell nice.Snowie is not always around,so jewel is closer,now i know why dogs are "Man's best friend"Jewel is MY best friend.I love you JEWEL!<333 the only joy in my life right now.Cannot live without her.

ALONE.

I feel so helpless right now,another half and hour going for gb,i don't feel like going,i cannot face it,because it means i cannot i run away anymore,i have to face it.Well,who knows right?Later still got sc meeting,what's the point of going?These few days,feeling very down..is it true that i chose wrongly?i wonder always why.I ask myself.I'm all alone,my classmates and friends may be there for me,keeping me company,but what about...but it just doesn't feel right.These few days i have been a more addict reader,i go everywhere with a book,just to cheer me up and to find something to distract me so that i won't feel so upset,really,from the bottom of my heart i really miss them,no matter how hard i try to stay ignorant.Like i said,its over..there is no point continueing,i'm disappearing from their world,just like those memories.I don't mind really,to be forgotten,its much less painful in a way.I've got only less than a year,if the year has to end like this,then i can't help it.We made many promises last year about this year,im not so sure its going to be kept and im almost certain of it.Well..im off now.

{ Saturday, January 17, 2009 }

Friday, January 16, 2009.

I think im starting to lose myself.Really i am,feel like suffocating,everyday.The emptiness,the lonliness i feel each and everyday,i can't bear it anymore,its like losing apart of me,4 years,its that long,how can i possibly let it go?After everything,how?My heart aches alot,no more laughter,no more wide smiles.It's over,everything.I won't go back anymore.Having dreams,flashes of memories,its just too hard to bear.Every night,i can't sleep in peace.Just forget about it,forget about everything,im just a memory,easy to forget or rather,im already forgotten.Don't bother about anything.

Labels: forgotten.

{ Friday, January 16, 2009 }

Thursday, January 08, 2009.

This week really has been tiring week,many things happened.It was great to catch up with friends and classmates and all that.No matter how much i enjoy being back with my classmates,i still cannot help but feel that im missing somthing,my friends..well,they are all busy,i understand but when i see some of my classmates being together with their closest friends,i cannot help but feel very envious of them,what about mine?It was sure quiet and awful without them,looks like we can never be as close as we use to.Friday was CCA fair,fancy drill,made quite alot of mistakes,super disappointed with myself,nevermind,but i really hope this year more girls will join,stayed up super late the day before the cca fair to do the flyers.Now im doing the econs poster and later i have tution from 2-6pm.On thursday also went to ngee ann poly,looks very exciting and there are so many courses,might consider this poly if i can't get to jc.Don't really have time to blog this year.Hmmm...first week already feel like dying,don't know how am i going to survive this year man!

Labels: forgotten.

{ Thursday, January 08, 2009 }