Sunday, August 24, 2008.

I can't let go

I don't know what to do from this point on.

Friday
I have gb drill training on friday.Put my bag in sc room.As it is,something happened.After that,i went to find xueyi,she was on her way out of school with huishi,they going for dentel,later that come back.I told her what happened.After she left,i saw sheridin and rest.I cannot control myself,and i cried.Thanks sheridin,esther and shinyi for comforting me,but i can't stop thinking about it.Very distracted during drill,kena alot from my officers.After cca,i wanted to go home but i realise my bag in sc room.So i don't want to go,instead i just wait and watch other cca.Waited for about 45mins outside.When they came out,i asked rose helped me take my bag.I could'nt go in.I didn't want to face them.When i saw them,i just ran into the toilet and i ... i don't know,its just too much for me.Xueyi went back first.I went with Sheena,Rose,Fionn and Joycelyn.Thanks guys.
I really don't understand.

Saturday
Raining.Gb as usual.After gb went to jcc.Accompanied xueyi for her make up badgework with mdm peien.I seek advice from mdm peien.She just tell me i must first learn to let myself go,how am i to do that?



all those moments,are they just fiction?
they never really happened righr?
my friends?who are they?
are they really?

ps.i wish all this never happened.

{ Sunday, August 24, 2008 }