Friday, October 17, 2008.

Feeling very lost & empty.Something is missing.

Haish,thanks guys for cheering me up.I don't know what i will do without you people.Haish,the person who i wanted to be the one next to me was again not there.It is always like that.When anything happened to you,im usually the last person you confide in.Not that mind cause you might not want to tell me at first,but since when i never showed any concern for you.Whenever you need me,i will be there,but whenever i need you,you were never there.That makes me feel very confused and terrible.Haish,have it your way then.Now i finally realise,what you told me were all lies.All lies i say.I thought i knew you but i guess im wrong.I use to think i can read you or should i say understand what you are going through cause i knew everything about you.I don't know what am i in your eyes.I've been trying to figure it out for quite awhile.And i realise its no use,i will never find out,cause everytime i asked you,your answers are all lies.To me anyway,and its getting harder to believe if what you said is true a not.Maybe that's the reason why i cannot tell you things that i wanted you to know. :/ Who am i to you?When you told me about what you felt uncomfortable about something that i did,i changed so that you wouldn't feel that way.What are you trying to show here?Am i just another person you meet everyday?To me,you were never just another person,and it will always be that way.Maybe that's the reason why you never understood me.I know you because i bothered to find out,and you are the only one who truely knew what i go through at home.I know you well enough to tell your true nature.It makes me feel crush and upset just thinking about it.Haish.

Labels: Feeling alone;helpless.