Saturday, January 17, 2009.

These are photos i just took of jewel,she is SUCH a hyperactive,and playful dog,there are photos of her rolling around on the bed,another one playing with her teddy bear and worst of all,the one with her playing with a super duper big rock.The rocks are her collection,she collects them back everyday after a walk,i don't know why she does that,see the big pile,i threw away so many but they seem to be coming back.NAUGHTY!Gave my dog a bath this morning,she now smell nice.Snowie is not always around,so jewel is closer,now i know why dogs are "Man's best friend"Jewel is MY best friend.I love you JEWEL!<333 the only joy in my life right now.Cannot live without her.

ALONE.

I feel so helpless right now,another half and hour going for gb,i don't feel like going,i cannot face it,because it means i cannot i run away anymore,i have to face it.Well,who knows right?Later still got sc meeting,what's the point of going?These few days,feeling very down..is it true that i chose wrongly?i wonder always why.I ask myself.I'm all alone,my classmates and friends may be there for me,keeping me company,but what about...but it just doesn't feel right.These few days i have been a more addict reader,i go everywhere with a book,just to cheer me up and to find something to distract me so that i won't feel so upset,really,from the bottom of my heart i really miss them,no matter how hard i try to stay ignorant.Like i said,its over..there is no point continueing,i'm disappearing from their world,just like those memories.I don't mind really,to be forgotten,its much less painful in a way.I've got only less than a year,if the year has to end like this,then i can't help it.We made many promises last year about this year,im not so sure its going to be kept and im almost certain of it.Well..im off now.

{ Saturday, January 17, 2009 }